Sometimes I feel none of these new age spiritual dogmas or even healing is helping (though it is for some) and I’ve been feeling that even these things I believe are not helping me. Not the thought of life being eternal, God being us, everything is One.. still there is SUFFERING and always going away from feelings that are bad. But how can I be whole, never if I try to suppress my certain feelings and thoughts, my needs.. If I don’t allow my feelings to be bad or sad, I’m never going to be whole. So I have this work for me (not that I should want anything, not even working for my spirituality) to feel my bad and sad feelings, be in them and not try to make them go away…
“You are ready for spirituality 2.0 when you realize that nothing you ever do is gonna make you happy.”
“At a certain point in our spiritual development, we are confronted with the fact that the very things that once liberated us are now the things that holds us prisoner. We realize that in wanting to feel better or think better, we are asking ourselves to feel and think and be different. We discover that by trying to feel better or think better, or be better, we are resisting ourselves. And then the whole game changes. We leave behind the desire for manifestation. We replace all wants for the want for oneness with ourselves. We stop wanting to heal because it no longer feels good to think that something about ourselves is broken. Instead, we begin to crave integration. The spiritual apex we begin to pursue is authenticity. Authenticity is an idea that appeals to us when we begin to live in the present moment. We fall in love with what is.”
“And so, we trade the practice of going in the direction of what we want and chasing our positive emotions for the practice of going the opposite direction. And we begin by dropping into our wounds. We spend our time being with those unpleasant emotions and sensations and feelings with a listening and caring ear. We are present with ourselves with absolutely no conditions. We do not want to change the way we feel. We do not want to make the negative sensations and feelings better. We simply give them the attention that we never gave them before, back when we were so busy running from them with numbing drugs and distraction and endless self help techniques. We stop arguing against them. We become present fully with them and by doing so, these aspects integrate into our being. We learn that the reason we suffer so badly from anything, is not because of the thing itself, but because of our resistance to it. We learn that when we no longer resist any aspect of our being, when we let ourselves fully feel our feelings and fully think our thoughts, and thus we let ourselves fully be ourselves in this very moment. As a result, we become whole.”
-Teal
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